sigh.

i've been debating about whether i should keep this blog.

i think it's high time i leave this blog behind :'(

you can find me here: http://forfifteenminutes.wordpress.com/
or here: http://www.examiner.com/ethnic-restaurants-in-los-angeles/prairie-park
or here: http://prairiepark.tumblr.com/

HAHA.

jobless

when i was young, my parents always threatened me with "you better study hard, or else you'll end up being homeless like those bums on the street".

it's true that i'm not homeless and on the street, but how come studying hard has still left me jobless?

npr + alec baldwin = radio bliss

i've always been a fan of alec baldwin's sultry voice and dry as chapped lips in the dead of winter humor.

here he is in several different clips, participating in npr's pledge drive this year.

oh, and for the record, it's good to be back, blogger.

untitled

when all has come to pass and there is much to do of nothing

i look towards the orbs above and seek somebody loving

yet with each passing moment i dip further into doubt

the bottomless sea of dark from which i can’t climb out

in a world made from nothing but words, from a breath that overflows

all i know about it is its weight and curse, through my enemies and my foes

deliver me, o love, and bring again the radiance of your gaze into my life

that i may sit at your feet in humble adoration and trust you will rid me of my plight

please, help. (see link below)

http://prairiepark.tumblr.com/

person

i just met a super determined and hard-working man at kuci's radio station. he made me realize that no matter what i do in life, it'll be difficult.

so i need to be determined and try my hardest in whatever i do.

all for the glory of God.

pleasant

this is such a pleasant video and so well made! it's a music video for a japanese ukulele duo called U900. enjoy

the new year

As january comes to a close, I've realized how quickly time flies. Where have the days gone and what do I have to show for them?

While everyone was busy making and keeping their new year's resolutions, I found myself trying to cope with 2010 having arrived at all. I find myself telling everyone that this is the "year of decisions" for me -- that this is a milestone in my life and this year will determine everything for me. However, I'm beginning to realize that my year will probably be full of everything but decisions. I should say, instead, that this will be my "year of attempts, efforts, and hopes."

They say that life is just a journey and that we're all just headed toward a destination. If that's the case, then I guess in a few months I'll be shifting gears from drive to neutral. During college I was comfortably cruising along with the concrete pavement beneath, my path laid out clearly before me in a straight line headed toward graduation. My itinerary was simple: study hard and you'll be doing your job as a God-glorifying student. But these days I feel like the road ahead of me is unpaved and in unchartered territory. I've been dropped in the middle of the desert and expected to return home, bear grylls style.

So where to? These days they say to go east because that's where all the money is... which way's east? What if my destination's to the south? west? north?

Frankly, I do know where to look for guidance -- it's just a matter of whether I will trust the direction that such guidance will give me. "Look to the heavens and ask for help" my spirit advises me... and so I will lift my eyes to the mountains, from whence my help does come.

so this is the new year.

words of wisdom

"the works of monks and priests, however holy and arduous they be, do not differ in one whit in the sight of God from the works of the rustic laborer in the field or the woman going about her household tasks but that all works are measured before God by faith alone... housework is often more acceptable to God than all the fastings and other works of a monk or priest, because the monk or priest lacks faith." - martin luther

"a man can no more diminish God's glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word, 'darkness' on the walls of his cell" - c.s. lewis